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Tuesday, 2 December 2014

"...or history might repeat itself"

Stud and I had our first fight today.

It was over a misunderstanding, over something stupid that isn't even worth mentioning. I won't delve too much into it but here's what happened - I misread something that he had said and started acting out on what I thought he had told me.

It was one of those "I could have sworn he said this..." moments.

Then, I became this obsessive, clingy monster that was far from likable. My behavior became inexcusable and intolerable to the point where we ended up having a spat, but thankfully, the mess got cleared up before we both went to bed. Imagine my relief.

Lately, I've also noticed a change in my personality, like I'm suddenly expecting a lot more from him, even though he has already given me his love, trust and all that I could have asked for. I feel this power-hungry type alter ego arising from within, and I hate to admit it but I can kinda pinpoint who it is.

Evan.

This power hunger has to stop or history might repeat itself. I don't want to lose Steven like I did with Alex and David. I need to figure out a way to tame this insatiable thirst for pettiness and attention.

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☑ Find a best friend
☑ Learn to play the piano
☑ Be in a relationship
☑ See New York skyline
☑ Become a Game Sage
☑ Be part of a fraternity
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☑ Lose virginity
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☑ Experience snow
☑ See the northern lights
❒ Ride a horse
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❒ Dip a chocolate fondue fountain
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❒ Join the circus
❒ Go skinny dipping
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