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Tuesday 29 December 2015

"the greatest story ever told"

So if you're wondering why I haven't been posting chapters about my marriage (...as promised), it's because I chose not to disclose it. I was in a bad place then, but I've moved on since - no sense in reliving an episode of my life I won't be revisiting anytime soon.

With that out of the way, I've been reflecting a lot about the year I had - 2015.

There was love, no shortage of that, that's for sure

There were heartbreaks and shattered expectations.

There was spontaneity, jumping into situations I wasn't ready for.

There were moments of vulnerability and doubts, and

there were promises and vows I couldn't fulfill or keep.

But most of all, through all the mess... through all the noise... I found myself. I realized what I must do in the years to come. My heart will remain open to the possibilities of love, because come what may, I made a promise to someone special when I was 12.

The promise that I will live the greatest story ever told.

Just you wait...

And I'm already halfway there. If there is any shadow of doubt, I'll remember that everything I do in this lifetime isn't everlasting. There IS a realm of infinite possibilities we call "the afterlife", and no law can deny us our best chance of living this life we're granted to the fullest.

What I've learned this year is to not be governed by uniformity. Every road I walk is a step towards discovering myself, and someday I would have accrued a locker full of captivating, breathtaking memories.

I took a huge leap and now I'm miles away from home.

But that's how life should be; unexpected and impetuous.

ツ | 6:30 am

Thursday 24 December 2015

"Gay Christmas"

ツ | 10:42 pm

Wednesday 9 December 2015

"Suicidal Sad"

When you're going nowhere with a friendship, it's time to walk away.

I don't want to go on a rant about what happened but here's what I've learned. People are always going to find some way to "justify" their actions even though they know what they did was wrong. They are going to use past events to either guilt you or victimize themselves (e.g. "I've helped you in the past, and this is how you repay me"). No. You helped out of good will of your heart, it doesn't give you the right (...at any point after) to destroy a person's confidence and self-esteem.

Life is complicated at it is.

Life as a homosexual makes it that much more confusing.

Life with "friends" who constantly makes fun of who I am is just...

Sad.

Suicidal sad.

ツ | 7:49 pm

Tuesday 1 December 2015

"Cause we're young and we're reckless,

We'll take this way too far."

- Taylor Swift

How do you prove to someone you're not who they peg you to be?

How do you convince someone you're "more than meets the eye"?

On the metaphysics world, I've successfully acquired (what I deem to be) substantial cataclysmic data on the average human psyche and how we 'transcribe a single thought into an embodiment' for my species. As far as research goes, it provides a wide array of evidence pertaining to the infrastructure of a human soul. Though the function is profitable, value is highly sought after, and the process of "obtaining it" is shockingly facile, the act of severing the ties between an emotionally distraught soul from its vessel is strenuous, and overwhelmingly tedious. There seems to be a staggering increase in condemned souls, though that is not to say that they are expendable.

With the sleeper agents in their tactical specimens, we are scheduled to commence the next phase. I pray to mother moon that this experiment will run its course and not render us inept.

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ツ | 2:04 am

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My name is Zachary (

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Born on Christmas of '92 (

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Gay (

) Separated (

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I ❤ my best friends
«Jen Ross» and «Bekah»

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☑ Find a best friend
☑ Learn to play the piano
☑ Be in a relationship
☑ See New York skyline
☑ Become a Game Sage
☑ Be part of a fraternity
☑ Play on a grand piano
☑ Lose virginity
☑ Have a pet kitten/cat
☑ Experience snow
☑ See the northern lights
❒ Ride a horse
❒ Sit cozily by a fireplace
❒ Build a snowman
❒ Dip a chocolate fondue fountain
❒ Release an album
❒ Be a farmer for a day
❒ See the HOLLYWOOD sign
❒ Join the circus
❒ Go skinny dipping
❒ Taste orkney ice cream