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Tuesday, 3 February 2015

"...a shadow of remorse"

Woke up this morning feeling like a truck had dumped a load of anvils on me. I'm trying to deal with this, but I'm not emotionally strong enough. At this point, I'm afraid of being hopeful. I'm terrified. I don't want to experience pain this raw ever again.

This uncertainty, of what I'm going to do with my life from here on out, it's not something I'm a fan of. Trust me, I really hate feeling sorry for myself because it shows weakness and incompetence, but at the same time, it's a coping mechanism.

I'm fickle-minded, and bruise easily. Gah! Well, at least... I'll have the memories. I've said this to him, and I'll say it again - I don't regret the relationship, and I'll forever remember (only) the good times we had.

I now walk with a shadow of remorse, and soon, I'll have to pick myself up. I may not be a boyfriend, but I'm still a friend - to Jen, Kezzy, AJ, Bekah and everyone else. They're reaching their hands out to pull me out of the darkness, and I can't let 'em down.

...I won't let them down.

Oh.. and also, I can't wait for Hilary Duff's new album to drop, read somewhere that she did a duet with Tove Lo. Also, where's the new goddamn Owl City album when you need it? >.>

ツ | 7:40 pm

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My name is Zachary (

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Born on Christmas of '92 (

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Gay (

) Separated (

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I ❤ my best friends
«Jen Ross» and «Bekah»

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☑ Find a best friend
☑ Learn to play the piano
☑ Be in a relationship
☑ See New York skyline
☑ Become a Game Sage
☑ Be part of a fraternity
☑ Play on a grand piano
☑ Lose virginity
☑ Have a pet kitten/cat
☑ Experience snow
☑ See the northern lights
❒ Ride a horse
❒ Sit cozily by a fireplace
❒ Build a snowman
❒ Dip a chocolate fondue fountain
❒ Release an album
❒ Be a farmer for a day
❒ See the HOLLYWOOD sign
❒ Join the circus
❒ Go skinny dipping
❒ Taste orkney ice cream