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Sunday, 3 May 2015

"Love is selfless..."

Do you ever feel like one person can understand exactly what you're going through?

Lately, I've been spending most of my time online because living in reality gets especially dry this time of year. I'm usually a socialite but given that my priorities are in a mess, I can't yet sort my life out. I feel powerless and cocooned in a locked room with no window or way out, and strangely, I'm okay with that. I'm comfortable staying confined because of.. well, someone.

Feelings.. boy are they an obstacle when it comes to crossing the bridge over to the other side. I mean.. how can I let myself get blindsided by 'attraction'? I let my feelings towards a person grow, and before I know it, I've developed a severe dependency on him.

The bad?

This is virtual reality

The worse?

He has a boyfriend in real life

The worst?

I haven't seen how he really looks like (or I might have.. shrugs)

It's just... the things he'd said while we were on call (..this is Skype) made me feel understood, like he could relate to what I was going through. It was something along the lines of, "yeah.. if you could find a man who can take you away from 'it all', that's the best!" (I'm paraphrasing, of course). That's what I'm looking for.. someone who can rescue me from this accursed island I'm stranded on and live the rest of our lives together someplace else. He gets it.. he really does.

There is also a quality about him that sexually charges me, not to mention his personality is one that compliments all of mine, as mine does to his.

Too bad I'll only ever be his "boy toy" but interestingly enough, I'm contented with that label. Truth is.. love is selfless and despite what most of my ex might say or think of me, I don't HAVE to be with someone in order to achieve true happiness. As long as he leads a blissful life where I get to see him smile and hear him laugh every (or every other) day, I'll count myself lucky.

ツ | 10:14 pm

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My name is Zachary (

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Born on Christmas of '92 (

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Gay (

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I ❤ my best friends
«Jen Ross» and «Bekah»

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☑ Find a best friend
☑ Learn to play the piano
☑ Be in a relationship
☑ See New York skyline
☑ Become a Game Sage
☑ Be part of a fraternity
☑ Play on a grand piano
☑ Lose virginity
☑ Have a pet kitten/cat
☑ Experience snow
☑ See the northern lights
❒ Ride a horse
❒ Sit cozily by a fireplace
❒ Build a snowman
❒ Dip a chocolate fondue fountain
❒ Release an album
❒ Be a farmer for a day
❒ See the HOLLYWOOD sign
❒ Join the circus
❒ Go skinny dipping
❒ Taste orkney ice cream