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Tuesday, 21 July 2015

"...a perfect friend"

Couple of days ago, Mark and I went to the computer exchange shop to get my laptop repaired because apparently, there was a problem with the hard drive. We went back there again yesterday to collect it, and now I'm blogging on it.

I've installed every necessary app (Skype, Spotify, etc) except IMVU. I don't think I'll be logging on there anymore. With this new hard drive, I'm unable to access my old data (DJ scripts) that were previously on my old hard drive - which they gave it back to me in a box. It's such a shame though.. because I really enjoyed DJing.

Anyhoo.. this could be my fresh start, a clean slate,

'Out with the old, in with the new'.

Lately I've noticed that people are too quick to judge and pin the blame on someone to make sense of things, even though there might be more to the story than hearsay.

It's sorta like "Mob Mentality" but based off rumors or lack of factual evidence from the source or an unbiased/credible individual. Simply put, there's never a "let's hear his side of the story first."

The rarest people in this world are those who listens to what you have to say, understands where you're coming from, gives his/her opinion on what you did and stays by your side even when you've made the gravest mistake man couldn't possibly forgive you for.

Part of being growing up is having character development. Watch any decent movie, you'll often see the main character go through a journey of self-discovery to better him/herself. I've made my fair share of mistakes along the way, but I'm learning and that's what counts.

The more I think about it, the more I feel stupid for thinking that I had true friends when in reality, most of them are only looking out for themselves. Everyone tries to preserve their virtual alias but all they are out for is flesh and status. Virtual friendship is a thin silhouette that disguises the need for self-validation.

Don't even get me started on virtual relationships...

I dare say I'm a good person who may have strayed every now and then, yet people insist on amplifying what I did and making me out like the villain and in doing so, ostracize and convict me. I'm tired of indulging in their charade so I'll just nod and smile as I fade into obscurity and become "yesterday's news". It's exhausting to keep up with gossips because ultimately, most prattles are a contradiction (the very people who acts like their moral compass is unscathed and righteous are full of shit).

I guess what I'm trying to say is this..

Since trust takes years to build and seconds to destroy, someone like me - who lives tumultuously - will eventually be caught in the crossfire and suffer the loss of those who appear to be friends but really aren't (to begin with).

Friends stick by you through the thick and thin, despite the sheer betrayal and the roughest of seas. If you walk away from someone after they've made a blunder, then what you're looking for is an "idea" of a perfect friend, not friendship itself (...accepting his/her faults, flaws and all) because no one is perfect.

ツ | 10:52 am

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My name is Zachary (

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Born on Christmas of '92 (

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Gay (

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I ❤ my best friends
«Jen Ross» and «Bekah»

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☑ Find a best friend
☑ Learn to play the piano
☑ Be in a relationship
☑ See New York skyline
☑ Become a Game Sage
☑ Be part of a fraternity
☑ Play on a grand piano
☑ Lose virginity
☑ Have a pet kitten/cat
☑ Experience snow
☑ See the northern lights
❒ Ride a horse
❒ Sit cozily by a fireplace
❒ Build a snowman
❒ Dip a chocolate fondue fountain
❒ Release an album
❒ Be a farmer for a day
❒ See the HOLLYWOOD sign
❒ Join the circus
❒ Go skinny dipping
❒ Taste orkney ice cream