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Thursday, 22 October 2015

"Marriage Life"

Prelude
Chapter 1 ✎ "Where It All Began"
Chapter 2 ✎ "Happiness! But... Short-lived"
Chapter 3 ✎ "Unfaithfulness Hurts"
Chapter 4 ✎ "Walk Away"
Chapter 5 ✎ "God Knows That I've Tried"
Chapter 6 ✎ "Never Again"
Chapter 7 ✎ "Someplace I Can Finally Smile"

(...) IMVU - the social networking site - was where it all began. My marriage life. I would be lying if I said I didn't know what I was getting into from the get-go. I'm usually intuitive, but for once in my life, I wanted to leave it up to fate. Y'know, see what it had in store for this little rebel.

When we first met, it was virtual - like how most love stories develop these days. We would engage in long hours of Skype calls to gather as much 'presence' from each other as possible (though cyber, we had built our own little world by then). He seemed nice and I instantly fell for his - and I know this is going to sound insanely absurd, but... - obsessive-compulsive behavior.

The things he would do repetitively made me feel a sense of stability, like... he was predictable. That's really all there is to it. And knowing me, I don't like (...and unless I really have to, hate adapting to) changes.

Back when we first cyber-dated, he would put on the movie Cloudy With A Chance of Meatballs 2 every night before he went to bed and have it on in the background while he drifted off to sleep. I felt... (for lack of better word) ...safe. And yeah, we slept while on a Skype call because we simply couldn't detach from each other's company.

There was consistency, and even to this day, he still puts on a movie most nights before heading to bed. We have that in common, but I usually doze off to a wider array of content, namely YouTube videos, movies and reruns of my favorite TV shows.

So, yes.

We were - in my callow, naive and patsy lil' head - like two peas in a pod. But life... life doesn't ever go all that smoothly, now does it?

We ended up breaking it off after less than a week, and went our separate ways. It was easy for me then, because it was over the internet; can't say the same for now though. And here's why we broke up...

[I have gone through this over and over in my head (...like a thousand times); even tried to better myself (physically and assume another personality), but it will NEVER work between us.]

He...

....will ALWAYS want 'the next best thing' that comes along
....is never satisfied with what he has (gets bored of his possessions easily - me included)
....will go to the extent of lying/evading what he did as long as he gets what he wants

In other words - yea, you guessed it... - cheating.

And that fucking hurts :\

Well, that ended, and I locked away that part of my life. This happened back in April of this year. Since the relationship was short-lived, I wasn't too bummed out by it. But little did I know, there was going to be a sequel to this soon-to-be-destructive story.

I'll admit though... I didn't see it coming.

...to be continued

ツ | 12:19 am

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My name is Zachary (

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Born on Christmas of '92 (

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Gay (

) Separated (

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I ❤ my best friends
«Jen Ross» and «Bekah»

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☑ Find a best friend
☑ Learn to play the piano
☑ Be in a relationship
☑ See New York skyline
☑ Become a Game Sage
☑ Be part of a fraternity
☑ Play on a grand piano
☑ Lose virginity
☑ Have a pet kitten/cat
☑ Experience snow
☑ See the northern lights
❒ Ride a horse
❒ Sit cozily by a fireplace
❒ Build a snowman
❒ Dip a chocolate fondue fountain
❒ Release an album
❒ Be a farmer for a day
❒ See the HOLLYWOOD sign
❒ Join the circus
❒ Go skinny dipping
❒ Taste orkney ice cream