"Suicidal Sad"
When you're going nowhere with a friendship, it's time to walk away.
I don't want to go on a rant about what happened but here's what I've learned. People are always going to find some way to "justify" their actions even though they know what they did was wrong. They are going to use past events to either guilt you or victimize themselves (e.g. "I've helped you in the past, and this is how you repay me"). No. You helped out of good will of your heart, it doesn't give you the right (...at any point after) to destroy a person's confidence and self-esteem.
Life is complicated at it is.
Life as a homosexual makes it that much more confusing.
Life with "friends" who constantly makes fun of who I am is just...
Sad.
Suicidal sad.