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Monday, 18 January 2016

"Radio Silence"

Over the past couple of months, I've been maintaining radio silence, and I intend to walk in the shadows for the weeks to come. As the days draw closer to the anniversary of his passing, I indulged my alter egos in the ruling of my psyche, hence the more recent extraterrestrials (or those that stems from Greek orthodox origins) posts, namely "KX47110268Ω" and "Nobody in this world can be trusted...".

Stress is prevalent in my nightly flashbacks of when I was with him. He wasn't an ex-lover of mine or anything, he was simply a friend. A really good friend. My mind still goes back to the days where we were young and reckless. Funny how in a matter of years, a person can find him/herself in a completely different environment with nothing but a memory to shamelessly wallow in.

Therapy only works to suppress the pain, not abolish it, and I'm tired of being studied and judged for how I felt in the counselling room.

And what hurts the most is that I've gone way past the grieving phase, and truth be told, I just want to get past the feeling of loss, but I. Can't. Fucking. Let. Go.

Until I can find a way to put the past behind me, I'll have to resume life on a false-front mode.

"I will live the greatest story ever told..."

Yeah right... How fun can it be without... you...

ツ | 2:44 am

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My name is Zachary (

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Born on Christmas of '92 (

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Gay (

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I ❤ my best friends
«Jen Ross» and «Bekah»

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☑ Find a best friend
☑ Learn to play the piano
☑ Be in a relationship
☑ See New York skyline
☑ Become a Game Sage
☑ Be part of a fraternity
☑ Play on a grand piano
☑ Lose virginity
☑ Have a pet kitten/cat
☑ Experience snow
☑ See the northern lights
❒ Ride a horse
❒ Sit cozily by a fireplace
❒ Build a snowman
❒ Dip a chocolate fondue fountain
❒ Release an album
❒ Be a farmer for a day
❒ See the HOLLYWOOD sign
❒ Join the circus
❒ Go skinny dipping
❒ Taste orkney ice cream