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Tuesday, 22 March 2016

"Back when.."

I recently took a mental trip down memory lane because I got triggered by a certain.. event. It all came back to me at once, this.. this immense surge of nostalgia overwhelmed me to the point where I felt who I once were.

It was me back when I was an adolescent; with Raven, he had been my best friend for ten years.

Back when I still haven't figure out what my sexuality was...

Back when it didn't matter whether I was straight, bi or gay...

Back when all we wanted to do was be kids and have fun...

I guess what I miss the most about my past is the innocence of it all. There wasn't a need for me to lie, nor for there to be any distrust. Everything was cut and dry, because no one judged the other person for who they were. We were young, wild and lived in the moment.

We were also friends, all of us - Raven, Keane, Raverick and then later on, Benny. We would raid the swimming pools on weekends and be the rowdy bunch that everyone else would glance over to speculate. We would have sleepovers and stay up all night to play Defense of the Ancients (DotA), make trips to the coffee shop in the wee hours of the morning to have supper, get our game on at the mall arcades, and catch late night movies at the cinema, after which we would snack at McDonalds.

Even though Raven and I had known each other for far longer than the others, Keane was the one I confided in the most because he was the brainy one. Raverick was the leader of our pack, and he ran for the track team in school, so each time I ran away (literally) from what I would consider "problems", he would chase after and catch up to me. They had my back, but we've now grown apart and I get a wistful sensation, reminiscing the days where I was genuinely contented with life.

Those days... I can't go back to those days, because it would involve a major lifestyle change, and they have probably moved on in life, as have I. My childhood, looking back, was everything I've ever wanted, and I'm really grateful for the ex-friends that I had.

Back when life was simple...

Back when I was always smiling...

Back when I was just Zachary...

Back when I was just a boy.

ツ | 4:30 am

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My name is Zachary (

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Born on Christmas of '92 (

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Gay (

) Separated (

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I ❤ my best friends
«Jen Ross» and «Bekah»

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☑ Find a best friend
☑ Learn to play the piano
☑ Be in a relationship
☑ See New York skyline
☑ Become a Game Sage
☑ Be part of a fraternity
☑ Play on a grand piano
☑ Lose virginity
☑ Have a pet kitten/cat
☑ Experience snow
☑ See the northern lights
❒ Ride a horse
❒ Sit cozily by a fireplace
❒ Build a snowman
❒ Dip a chocolate fondue fountain
❒ Release an album
❒ Be a farmer for a day
❒ See the HOLLYWOOD sign
❒ Join the circus
❒ Go skinny dipping
❒ Taste orkney ice cream