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Friday, 6 November 2015

Just 3 short, phlegmatic rants today, cause I'm in the mood to rant!

1. "Prove It!"

"I don't believe that's you."
"Prove it's you in the picture by going on cam.."

"Take a picture of yourself holding a piece of paper with (...so and so) scribbled on it."

I only ever gave in to their demands for identity verification twice. One was for my ex, Steven, and the other was with someone I met on IMVU earlier this year.

Don't get me wrong, I watch MTV's Catfish. It's like.. one of my favorite TV shows to kickback with a can of cherry soda and binge-watch. I know people create hoax profiles with fake pictures they snag on the internet to bait their preys into falling for their sick, twisted online fantasy game, but damn... have a little faith or trust until we establish some sort of relationship/friendship where I feel comfortable going on cam and showing myself to you.

They also tend to have this "I'm sure he's not who he says he is" demeanor to the way they talk/behave until proven otherwise, so they act all smug and rude towards me. But the fun part comes when I finally debunk their uncertainty and show my face on cam, and they revert back to their old self, the "now that I know that's really you, I'll be friendlier" nature.

Like, really?

2. Social Politics

Ever had friends of friends (or friends of your "significant other") come to you and be all like, "Oh, I regard you as a son.." or "You're like family to me.." but as soon as shit goes down, they immediately side with your friend/partner instead of even having the courtesy/decency to hear you out?

Not that it matters because I know how social politics work - you side with the friend you originally met (...or met first) and friends of his or hers are considered "extras" in your life, but.. it just doesn't make any sense if all you really wanna do is make a gesture of civility, but end up doing the complete opposite. Like, I get why you did it, but was it really necessary to begin with?

If you don't understand what I'm saying, here's an example:

A friend of my ex said she'd regarded me as family, and that we both could come to her if we ever had any problems. I tried messaging her on Facebook three times throughout the relationship but she never replied (the message was received and seen).

P.S. It's NOT his mom I'm talking about, it's a friend of my ex.

Whenever my ex did something wrong, she would be forgiving and expect me to overlook it - so I did. But towards the end of our relationship - right before the separation - she said "I can't believe Zac did that.." and removed me on Facebook without hearing my side of the story.

Assumptions...

Hearsay...

Fabricated stories...

It doesn't really surprise me though, because like I said, I know social politics. I understand the rationality behind why she did what she did, but it just came across as her having poor judgement of character and wanting to form senseless amity. It's obvious that she never really thought of me as family, and that she only said what she said to be "nice". But I mean...

Don't offer to help and be an unbiased party of a relationship if it's just a gesture and you don't really intend to be a mediator.

She's one of the enablers I was referring to in this post.

That's why I respect my friends...

They don't get involved.

They don't take sides.

They don't create animosity.

3. Multiple Personalities???

Regarding my multiple personalities...

Do I have split personality?
Yes.

Should I care if you don't believe I have split personality or think it's bullshit?
No. My/Your life still goes on. I'm not someone who needs validation of any kind.

Do I let my split personality hinder my judgement of character or obstruct my morals and ethics?
No.

Am I using my split personality as a way to justify my actions (good or bad)?
No.

Am I on disability?
No. I don't get any checks from any government because I don't want to acknowledge this as a disability or a disorder (even though it is classified as a disorder). I want to be an operative cog in society, to work and pay taxes like everyone else.

Has a psychiatrist or therapist ever diagnosed me with Dissociative Identity Disorder?
Yes, back in 2009. I have it officially documented.

I'm not proud of it either, but I try to embrace it by accepting my many personalities. I even label/name each personality to identify what state of mind I'm in when I'm in it. South Park (s15e06) has not done this disorder any justice though, but man do I love that show.

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